"I suppose that I have sacrificed my career somewhat by choosing to prioritize my wife and kids. Maybe I would produce more art if I isolated myself into my work.”It brought tears to my eyes. Just as Coach Alyson Stanfield said to me, family trumps all.
“Loren,” I said, “maybe you have chosen to prioritize your family because you have the strength to connect with them as well as with your art. Some artists seclude themselves in their studios because they are unable to immerse in relationships. They are too frightened of intimacy. I view your lifestyle as a sign of your strength, and I believe that your relationships with your wife and children support and enrich your ongoing capacity to create"
There are also some very moving comments you are leaving in response to yesterday's post. Again, Blogger doesn't provide me with your email address, so I cannot respond to you individually, but do know that they are most appreciated and helpful. I am not alone on my journey. I am beginning to realize that I am doing exactly what I am meant to be doing right now. I am actually finding the creative bone in this process of cleaning, paring down, subtracting the essential from the mounds. What I have is over 10 years of things I acquired while searching for myself and my voice. These things I needed, or thought I needed, have done their job and it is time to pass them on. They are still of value and importance, but they have finished their work here. I brings me joy to pass them along, with a secret wish that they will do their magic with you, just as they did with me.
Here are more Fragment words from 1999 - eerie - they could have been written last night...
Ever since I was a girl of 10 or 11, I have had the feeling that there was something really important I was supposed to contribute to this lifetime. For the last 35 years, I have been in complete mystery as to what i was supposed to do. I have worried that maybe I missed my chance, or maybe I am already doing it and don't recognize the worth of my actions.
In the last year or so, I feel like I am getting a lot closer to this important thing. In my journey to find my purpose, I have realized what is meaningful and real and true for me. I have discovered what the important things are in my life. I think that sharing what I have learned brings me closer to my authentic gesture. It feels right.